She asks, “even after we broke up from relationship. Why are you still nice to me?”
I smile remembering her words, and think to self. So what, we broke up. It’s not like we ended badly, in fact we ended sadly. She lives and has her everything in Thailand. As for me, I wish to go back home-country and help the government of my country, so that people’s welfare will be better.
Having to be a part doesn’t mean, we stop being nice. Daily, I practice diligently to be better and a nice person towards her and towards everybody.
The only person I’m least nice to is, myself. I really-really do not know how to take care of myself. Maybe, that’s why I like to take care and be concerned and thoughtful for the people around me.
Hoping that one day, a person will come to my life and teach me how to take care of myself. That I’d have a home and family so I wouldn’t get bored alone or would have to go seek for entertainment and companionship of friends.
And these days both can be easily found at a bar or a drinking place.
Really, there isn’t much activity to do at night, for the types like mine, and especially at Bangkok, where I stay currently. Here, nightlife means drinking night.
Well, I don’t have much friends to begin with and at this age. My friends are married and are about to be. So I don’t blame them for not showing up or hanging out like we used to when we enrolled in undergraduate or post graduate.
Among the few people I have managed to keep contact with and new acquaintance I have established.
Among them, no one likes to do pleasant nighttime activity. Like – go on drive, go shoot archery, go see a beautiful view drinking coffee.
My most unique hangout invitations are dismissed with an excuse.
But when it comes to a drinking plan, everyone is ‘in’
My night time choices are pretty much straight. Either go and drink everyday, and I do love drinking ‘whisky’ (Gold Label, Chivas Extra, and every Single Malt and Single Grain)
But the day I decide not to go to a bar or a club, then my that night stands still inside this small 29 Square meter apartment, called “Fuse Mobius Condominium.”
Here, I turn on tv and write my thoughts of present that could be useful in the future.
I reach out to my small balcony and smoke cigarettes.
At this point, I wonder ‘is cigarette like alcohol my drug, and are most drugs used by people to veil loneliness?’
I’m referring to those people, who are in fact, alone.
Well, there you have it my friends. This quote speaks, profoundly.
I wish we could understand; everything which we do not, now.
So that we would only feel troubled physically from our daily life hassle. Those physical problem which according to Buddha “originated because of us, we are the root of it”
But at least not feel discomfort, mentally.
Mental discomfort brings about inability to sleep. And I know, you all know this as well.
Sleep is such a beautiful routine of our life. Which I cherish the most and I hope my friends do as well. Those who didn’t receive enough of it. I bet, they would value it the most for having known its essence. On why we need to sleep enough in order to wake up a Happy Mind and begin the day happily.
I don’t know, how I will survive this system. Of having to wake up early for work and these days because of traffic jam, people have to wake up extra early. Especially, on those sudden nights, when I can only fall asleep after the sun rises. 🌞
And it happens quite often.
Hence, I hope that one day, I will be able to change the time schedule Policies of work and especially school, for students who are like and workers who are also like me. “The Nocturnal Group”
I won’t be able to change the world schedule, but I have a wishful thought that one day, I’ll change the way of life that doesn’t apply anymore, in Nepal, where I am originally from.
My today’s main reason for writing down my thoughts to become a social media post. Was to let anybody out there whoever faces loneliness discomfort, just like my introvert side.
So, today I decided to use this opportunity to share my lonely feelings and make friends with people who go through similar experience as I do. And even if some of you didn’t, we can still be friends.
Making friends and building friendship is one among the many ways, we will be able to unite the world and unite humanity.
Being alone all the time, rarely brings happiness to ones life, let alone to others.
Often having to be alone with, in silent room with never ending voices from the mind,
sucks the life out of a human soul.
Imagine family gathering , where there no music, no smiles and laughter and most of all no one to laugh with. Doesn’t that suck the ‘fun’ out of the party?
Therefore, I have came here to extend my; distant and via social media; but warm and honest “Hand of Friendship”
Hi, my name is Varun and I’m a Thoughtmonger!
Here on social media,
May I be your “Loneliness” ?
A friend of all loners.
How do you do?
Nice to meet you, I wish you a pleasant and a beautiful day 🙂